my life is like a roller coaster ride.

and right now my roller coaster is riding down.

i wish for a better roller coaster ride soon.

God build me a better roller coaster. please.

i think im the most unfortunate person in the world.

i have the most unreasonable and low life brother.

he rudely told me to: SHUT UP JESSIE. im on the phone.

am i his dog or what i wondered?

he thinks im being irritating when i was asking him a question. did he move my floor mat to his computer area.

and why did i ask that? coz his computer area is damn fucking dirty. and my floor mat is damn clean. and it aint once. i got a reply from the other friend saying it was the wind that blew my floor mat over. wind so strong one meh? i wondered too.. and i have to wait till he end the i dont know how long call to answer this simple question?

maybe ya. but he should at least say PROPERLY. like jessie im on the phone ask me later k? but hes not like that. he kinda raised his voice at me.

i was angry with my brother coz of his fucking low down attitude. hes down with chicken pox now. and im just being caring to tell him to BATH everyday when he usually dont do that! and that i told him to wash his bed sheets and etc to keep it clean so he wouldnt scratch till his skin gets off. or rather looked rotten like now!

i even pass some medicated cream for him. asked him to bath right away as he smells horrible. he doesnt want to. he said later. when i can clearly see PUS coming out from the wounded thingy. oh ya he also asked: chicken pox need to bath everyday one meh?

hello! normal human being bath at least twice a day lar!!!!! even if they do not have chicken pox.

all in all i meant good!

i also said no to eating chicken, and dark soya sauce and eat healthly all. i fucking meant good.

but he feels IRRITATED!

thats more than enough to piss me off.

next.

i called up my boyfriend to COMPLAIN.

halfway tru our conversation, serene called.

so i asked him to HOLD ON. and so i answered her call.

when i returned. HE ENDED THE CALL!

i didnt even said bye or anything. all i heard was TOOT TOOT TOOT TOOT.

this show how IMPORTANT I AM?! all the your so important to me etc.. i feel otherwise now thou.

he dont even have the patience TO WAIT for me to get back on the line with him!

he said that im chatting with serene and he doesnt know when would i end serene's call so he ended his.

but i was chatting with him and serene just called to ask somethings! so i said HOLD ON!

as per normal reaction or rather behaviour, a person surely waits for the caller to get back on the line patiently. but im surprised that i have met someone rather different.

if your boss calls you and he has another call coming in. do you hold or do you end your call? without hearing what your boss has to say??????

what are HOLD ON for?? can some good souls come enlighten me?!

so isit my fault or what?!

this is another worst day of my blessed life. the hair the mood the people the every single shit.

SCREAM!!!!!!

i fucking got a fucking ugly haircut.

and im looking so fucking ugly.

i fucking wanna scream at the china lady to learn english so that i can communicate with her. not that my mandarin suck. just that i only know how to describe in ENGLISH you see? SIGH

i fucking said SLOPE she dont understand. and the SLOPE i got was fucking short.

i said maintain the hair length and i fucking got no length maintained.

and i fucking thank her for cutting my beloved long hair before i stepped out of that fucking salon.

i dont deny that i am fucking angry now.

profanities pardoned.

i reached home. my bro friend saw me and laughed.

fucking sad.

he commented that i look like a CHINA girl.

so yea. welcome me this cheenaaa missy.

sighs. super upset. no face to head out later.

so ugly. the aunty said: when grow long already, it will look like your previous hairstyle. as shown on your handphone.

ARGH. i set my screensaver as my face! coz my hair looked damn beautiful. but i see myself now.. its a disaster.

feel this day is the worst day of my blessed life...

where is my sweetheart. come hug me now darling. i feel like digging a hole to hide.

SO UGLY!

no more self confidence.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. let me whine....

i realised im not a faithful blogger. but i know i have many faithful readers. harhar.

well well.

time passes.

as time passes. my sweetest one will head for his -ground school- staying in and all. and probably fly right away to Pearce for his pilot trainings.

and im certain that its a huge challenge. and definitely a NO weakling person like me would be waiting for him in Singapore.

it aint one easy task to be done thou. not task. but challenge to overcome. what do you call a challenge when you can overcome it so easily? harhar. it aint easy. so its a challenge. a truck load of challenges. and im very much sure that i can overcome it.

but. ill definitely whine like mad. harhar. im a whiner. haas. lifes still goes on...

so then it will be the work shop play go mad time. i have my sistas to go ooo lala together with!

well actually im missing him right now. while hes out for pooling sessions with his friends.

he surprised me at work with food for dinner last night. all the way down for me. very nice meal. thoughtful enough to know that i cant bite due to the teeth tightening on friday. im so happy and touched. asking myself: why do i have such a great boyfriend? and im thanking God for him.

why am i sharing about him here? harhar. he must be feeling damn proud of himself. well you should actually. HARHAR.

im gonna make sure im not a worry for him while he is away. and i am 100% sure that im with you for all times darling! not physically but yet mentally. and definitely. MR, YOUR MISSY CAN TAKE GREAT CARE OF HERSELF AT ALL TIMES TOO!

let me change a topic.

was chatting with serene dearest.

we came to the topic of crying together. scoldings too.

when i was heartbroken, definitely not coz of my beloved mr. she was here for me. and thanks to my "heartbrokeness" that got me closer to mr. harhars. and serene and i went shopping for the whole day. at just one level and spent around 400 plus! hars.

and the crying every single day. calling her up and letting her scold for every single shit about that heart broken thingy. she was practically repeating the whole scoldings lah. but hey. its worthwhile darling. i came totally outta it. and i found someone who really loves me for just me! HARHAR.

but without her, i think my heart will just die. oh ya. thanks for her scoldings too. it surely gotten me wide awake. haha.

im grateful to her! haha! so much!

she added: if i were to buy a bed for her to put at my room, she would stay over to accompany me during my lonely days.

im so damn touched.

thinking back. gosh, why did i cried so much? haha. she said i would definitely feel silly. and yes i do actually felt that way as she pointed. but im very grateful. ive learned and moved on. and the happily ever after. harhar. doisoundedlame? haha. happily ever after.

ive no topic or particular topic to talk about. i just wanted to type. touch on anything i feel like doing so.

im actually thankful for the people i met. and the people im with. and definitely the one i love and cherish. my sweetheart mr.

oh ya. im not committing suicide tomorrow. dont worry.

idontknowwhatimbloggingabout.ithinkineedtosleep.laughs.

HI my beloved readers!

pardon me for the late updates. damn busy with i dont know what. HARHAR!!!!!

alrights. ive cleared two big projects. presentations and acts. advertisement and presentation again! hars. not too bad. i have a bunch of great groupmates. ill introduce them to you readers later on.

APPLAUSE to my groupmates for all the hard times they have to go through, and yeap had GONE through! PRAISE GOD. for the patience the challenges, the stressing, the getting pissed and the whatever. its all gone for good now and we have to just start MUGGING for our finals! keep on keeping on my dear friends. :p

alright. just a slight updates of what had i done all these while.

went MOS on the EVE of National Day with dearest SERENE, and her classmates. jam packed. damn irritated by being squeezed to the side. cant dance shit. even had a hard time getting outta the dance floor. everyone are like squashed together like SARDINES. damnit.

oh i met friends there too! JY AND WENDY! harhar.

nonetheless i still danced and had fun. thou i was being irritated by some stupid guys. pea brains. how dare they take that chance to even pat my head and said: MAN MAN LAI! -wo shi fei chang de bu shuang lor! wo ye bu yao man ser mer lai!-

they were practically doing nothing but just trying to throw their fat smelly body towards us lar. i can imagine their ugly faces. PUI.

the girls and i were practically trying to get our way out from the dance floor and thanks to some very kind guys who opened up a very small way for us but in the middle of the dance floor... i was like STUCKED. i can feel my boobs pressed on my arms then on the other girls back. how flat is my boobs now? HAI. and theres some irritants pat on my head and serenes. taking chance to just feel the TOUCH? of our head? damn disgusted. pui. and they sounded so TIKO. erks.

i didnt even had the chance to take a look at there ugly faces. why ugly? TIKO guys handsome mehs? HARHAR! they've got looks like wolves. HARHAR!!!!!!!!

on the lighter note.

i went to nelson's very very beautiful home! i tell you, this guy is greatly blessed for every single thing. i think God is just too good to him lar! was there for steamboat dinner and teppanyaki. beloved people present are KY, NELSON,YT and CASON not forgetting me too! HARs!

what a good post national day celebration i had! ohhh.. how nice~

well well. even on the eve i had to head to my groupmates home to do PROJECT, FLIMING.

i took pictures too!!

and on National Day itself i met my sweetheart at for BBQ steamboat dinner with his family, and i brought along serene! thats the greatest dinner i had ever enjoyed. i love everyone there!

and... nomore enjoyment, its WORK next. HAI. what to do? when i am so NOT financially blessed?

alrights. i went Miss clarity with nelson today. had a great meal with him and not forgetting the oh so yummilicious MUD OZZE. it taste heavenly.

and i wanna savour cakes from The Patissier.

viola! PICTURES TALK NOW!

at MOS~


my beloved best friend!




























my phones flashlights damn bright.


WENDY~

at nelson's home!




YT and missy moi.


nelson and missy moi!


again


KY


CASON!


they are the ones who PAMPERED me with prawns! HARHAR!


US!


sucha nice view of the sunny sunset.

project/fliming.








sab and moi.


again


banu sab and myself.








banu and moi


i seemed so tall right? harhar




they are sab kala banu juli and ain not forgetting missy moi!






















im hungry for more ice cream!






im playing while waiting for our groups director to come out. im supposed to be going for a bath!


ain!


she ate my ICE CREAM. in the video. hars.


DIRECTOR


she DIRECTS


we LISTENS.

and today at MISS CLARITY!


NELSON! my best bud!


i know i look horrible here. harhar. do i need to look like a beau in a school with no hunk? hahaaaa! -giggles-

all in all i had a great time!

before i end!

HAPPY NINTH MY BABY! I LOVE YOU BILLIONS!

hes away for genting with his pilot trainee friends while here i am mugging and nagging and nua-ing at home. HARHAR!

i miss my most important sweetheart!

oh.. HE APPEARED AT MY WORKPLACE LAST NIGHT WITH MY OH SO FAVOURITE NUM FLIP FLOPS! HARHAR!

lovemisswanthimsodamnmuch! HARHAR!

till then~